To A Wild Flower

Hello hello! My name is Kaylene, and I'm in recovery from severe depression and anxiety, self harm, disordered eating habits, and distorted body image. Health is my goal and happiness is the side effect. Like my doctor told me, I deserve to wake up each morning and feel good. This is my safe place where I will talk openly about my struggles with my mental illness and my struggles with my recovery.
Visit my other blog for physical health, nutrition, and fitness tips!
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Things That Make Me Smile
Words of Wisdom

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The floor is lava. [vid]

This is one of the best gifs

omfg I’ve only ever seen the end part of this gif this is amazing

Yoga inspiration + adorable kitty = gold

Reasons to have a butt: so a kitty can sit on it

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You understand what it is to be a cutter.
You understand that it’s not for attention.
You understand that it’s a release.
You understand that the aim isn’t death.
You understand that feeling pain is easier than feeling numb or broken.
You understand that emotions can choke you.

Reblog if you’re not:
disgusted, horrified or look down on cutters.
Reblog if you really, truly, understand.

And know that recovery is so worth it.

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thebeginningofhealthy:

"The vibrations on the air are the breath of God speaking to man’s soul. Music is the language of God. We musicians are as close to God as man can be. We hear His voice, we read His lips, we give birth to the children of God, who sing His praise. That’s what musicians are…. God whispers into the ears of some men, but He shouts into mine!" -Ludwig van Beethoven in Copying Beethoven.

Going on 18 years of playing the piano. Music is and always has been my life. This is an excerpt from my practice tonight, playing one of my most favorite pieces from my favorite composer: Waltz in B Minor, Frédéric Chopin.
Almost 18 years and I still prefer playing late at night.

A month ago I relapsed and slid pretty far backwards for a few weeks.

But it’s been a few weeks since I pulled myself back out it. No one else. Nothing else. Just my own sheer determination and inner strength.

My arms and legs are healed. My scars are starting to fade with home remedies.

I stopped taking my medication.

And I feel amazing. I feel happy. I feel alive.

Fluff rice with a fork, never stir it with a spoon.
Vaseline is the best night time eye cream on the market.
You can buy alcohol and chips with your parents’ gas station credit cards.
If you force something, you’ll break it. That could be good or bad.
It’s important to read the care tags on your clothing and follow those instructions.
Related: don’t wash and dry j. crew wool sweaters.
Changing your car’s oil is not optional.
Whatever physical objects you acquire you will one day have to put into a box and move.
You’re allowed to disagree with negative feedback.
It’s always worth reading the instruction manual.
Nostalgia, like any drug, can be a poison or a remedy.
Pets are like human friends but better in every conceivable way.
Good doctors listen more than they talk.
You can’t fix a burned roux.
Floss.
Just because someone is an authority figure does not mean they are intelligent/competent/right.
Measure twice, cut once.
Get your nice jeans and dress pants tailored by a professional.
If you’re uncomfortable wearing it you will not look good.
You’re not required to drink alcohol while in a bar.
There are a few things that cure all ills: the beach, your favorite album on vinyl, and fresh garlic.
Kindness is not weakness.
Baking soda is not baking powder.
Taking Excedrin P.M. while still in public is not advisable.
Terrible people will succeed. Wonderful people will fail. The world is not fair.
Appropriate footwear is always key.
You can absolutely be too forgiving.
Real humor punches up, not down.
Reading the assigned chapters will actually help you learn the material.
There are no adults. Everyone is as clueless as you are.
Applying eyeliner well is a timeless art.
You can always leave. Awkward dates, suffocating jobs, hometowns that you outgrow, relationships that aren’t growing in the right direction.
You can always come home again.
But it won’t be the same.
Life is too short for bad books, boring movies, shitty people, and margarine.
Never underestimate the importance of eyebrows.

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Dog Fails (Part 1) [x]

Previously: Goat GIFs

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Sit in the stars, dreaming of the ground
Where people waltz on broken shards of glass
Painting the world with colors of their lives, it’s beautiful.
Float by the moon, plucking out the threads
That hold me in one cohesive piece
Tapestries form in the vast empty sky, it’s beautiful.
It’s beautiful.

They lived in paper homes and gray-scale towns
Crying for life in color all around
I showed them how to bleed it from their veins, it’s beautiful.
Laughter and song permeates the air
Gathered in throes, their colors mix and share
To all create a mural of their lives, it’s beautiful.
It’s beautiful.

Now my own hues dance before my eyes
Reminding me of the time I shared my life
Giving away my colors, for my life was beautiful.
Beauty ran out and sadness took its place
I snipped the strings, deciding my own fate
Soaring the skies, I see the whole earth’s life—it’s beautiful.

It’s beautiful, beautiful.

"Tunnel Vision" Kaylene Dyer
I am not defined
by my disorders
or flaws,
but how I have
survived and
conquered.